doubt

I'm starting to doubt that God is still calling me to pursue nursing. I've recently been denied and waitlisted the last two times i've applied. I mean, when i graduated high school, i nearly had me associate's degree already and the first time i applied to nursing school after 2 full years of college, i was rejected. Then, when i thought i had been given a second chance by the school have 12 more slots open for fall, I got put as #3 on the waiting list...#3!! ugh. I guess almost really does only count in horseshoes and hand grenades because i'm still not a nursing student.

I feel like God may be giving me a new dream and maybe i have just been afraid to admit it out of fear of looking like i have no idea what i'm doing. I have this passion in my heart that God has given me and only He knows the best way to fulfill that in my life. I might have thought i knew what i wanted to "do" for the rest of my life, but what i do know now is that all i need to worry about "doing" for the rest of my life is trusting that God is good like He says and loving Him in all i do.


Then again, maybe i'm just getting discouraged because God's plan isn't playing out in my MY timing. I guess I need only to be still.